Mr C: It’s been a long week! I went back to work and back to the gym on Monday, but realistically I wasn’t 100% (or anywhere near!). It’s Friday today, and probably the first day I’ve felt back to normal in terms of capability. I’ve had a bit of a wobble, psychologically-speaking, over the last few days – I was feeling very negative about how I’m doing. Being ill, my body just seemed to retain everything so I put on weight (water and probably a bit of fat too) and when you’re preparing for shows like this it is very hard to see yourself going in the wrong direction! It does go a little further than that though, in that I don’t want to build too much size becuase I don’t like that look, but it does sometimes leave me feeling I will be quite small and look less well built than the others in my category. There are a few quirks in my shape that leave me sometimes feeling that my anatomy works against me too. I guess it comes down to wanting to look like I belong there on stage, when the time comes – a certain amount of that is in my control, and a certain amount isn’t; I just have to hope that it’s insecurity rather than evidence of an actual problem! On top of all of that, I’ve been freaking out about fitting everything in, becuase work, weights, cardio, food and posing practice takes up my whole day so everything else is piling up on me! So anyway, I’m back on track, the little bit I gained over illness is dropping back off, and I’m starting to regain my usual positive and sunny disposition. Food has been on plan as always, but obviously I did miss almost a full week’s training. Audrey Kaipio’s Posing course day 2 is on Sunday, which I’m looking forward to becuase that’s definitely the area I need most development in. Next week is all going to be about getting back into the flow of it all and as usual fitting things in!
Mrs C has a lot more cardio than me on this plan, so isn’t going to get time to update this week unfortunately!